A certain thought makes you feel horrible, and there is someone who tries to make it better.
But for some reason you can’t accept their sincerity?
For some reason you feel like you deserve to feel that horrible. Even though in that moment you did nothing wrong.
And maybe the feeling wasn’t something you bestowed upon yourself. It’s just an innate thought that never fully leaves. It can subside, but always comes back.
I want to accept the person, I want to accept their kindness, I want to believe what they say, I want to believe that thought is just in my head and not a reality.
And yet I never achieve what I want.